The most beautiful stories often emerge from the most painful paths.
After two years of constant depression, disappointment, and failure, I came back home — broken and exhausted. Two years had passed since I had last touched a paintbrush. I was withering from the inside, carrying the weight of everything I felt I had lost, until one day I made a quiet decision: I would create something every single day.
That first night, after dinner, I picked up my paint file, dipped my brush in water, and let it glide across the paper. I added some colour and simply watched it flow. It was the worst painting I had ever made — and somehow, also the best. Because it was the one that started everything.
The next night, I painted a girl wearing the elements of the earth as her clothes. It was a thought experiment, and it surprised me. Just like that, one painting became two, and two became a habit — one painting every night, without fail.
Something shifted as I painted. I began living again. I began hoping again. In every moment that my brush moved across the canvas, I felt my heart move with it — dissolving quietly into the colours.
In seventh grade, I had learned about freedom art. But it was only now, in these late-night hours with paint on my hands, that I truly understood what it meant. Art is not bound by rules or regulations. Art is something that demands freedom — and in return, gives you freedom. Painting is simply the flow of colour, unrestrained and alive.
I had started living in painting.
Life was still hard. Hopeless words came from every direction. But after dinner, I had my paintings — and they gave me something nothing else could: hope. Hope to keep going. Hope to live.
That is the story of Living in Painting.